Life seems to just be swinging by right before my eyes. Everybody seems to be quite happy with the way their lives are going except me. You could just imagine how depressed I am everytime I check my social network account and find out that the world is merrily going along while here I am, stuck, in a rut, lonesome, cannot drive, cannot go places.
Sometimes I just laugh at it and say,what the heck. But some days I feel like being sucked into a quagmire which does not seem to have an end in sight. A long, dark, empty tunnel without a light to guide me through.
Don't get me wrong. My faith is strong. I just wish that sometimes I have that someone who's got my back (though that can be scary --the last person to have said that is on the brink of divorce as of press time). Days go by and all I can think about are a series of maybes--maybe I ought to have completed the events and things and occurrences in my life that either I have aborted or abandoned altogether. Maybes that lead to thoughts of whether I would have been a good mother, or a good lawyer, or whether I would have ever gotten myself up the bureaucratic ladder.
I know the answers will come. If only He gives me a sign that everything that is happening is all part of His plan, His Greater Scheme of things. Maybe it is. Or at least make my heart be quiet.
